Drama queen life.
Tree words to describe my last month? Drama, drama, drama. Full of new people and feelings. Full of funny and crazy memories. Actually I was so happy and excited that I had a feeling that nothing can bring me down. Until today. My past had a meeting with my present. Oh, that bitter sweet taste in my mouth...
Interesting college, awesome schoolmates, more free time, party's and butterfly's in my stomach... In top of that I started with my old passion- acting. I spend 6 hours per week in amazing drama group descovering that I can be anything I want to be. But you know what's funny? In real life I can't act. Seriously. I can't. People who know me well exactly know when I feel sad, even if I put pretty good fake smile on my face. But stage is my place to shine. Acting is about giving something away, handing yourself over whatever role you are askd to play... And I love it.
Million things to be happy...So, why the hell I have that bitter sweet taste in my mouth? It's hard to explain. But I'll try. I need to. Because feelings are made to be expressed...
You know that heart-breaking feeling when you see your "soul sister"old friend who knew about you everything and than you realize how much things change? Feeling that you don't even know what the fuck is going on? And why the fuck is this happening? And you just H.A.T.E. it.
I really, really, really do.
Maby, there comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama & people who create it. You need to surround yourself with people who make you laught so hard that you forgot the bad and focus on the good... But I can't. I don't need just good things and I never wanted perfect friends around me. I belive in perfect inperfection.
Yeah, I realized that I'll love and care about some people no meather how stupid life turns our ways.